what are the causes?

1st thing, i dunno why i am here. Just weird, im facing my mid term exam on this week. As i guessed, i am doing it.

Usually, everytime i facing exam i will always done something that i nvr ever/rarely done. Eg, im update this blog from out of the blue. Others like i practising piano for 2 hours insted of 1. I playing some no0b games like action man. More or less motivated, read more novels. Listen to a music which is not my liking. And sudden thinking about not to do and summore~

Suddenly im thinking again. About life and living, past and present.

"Is this really me??" that was my question when i doing such a things out of blue.

Awake but lost

i really took my time on my 1st paper just now, my mind was mixing between toughts but i managed to make it straight anyways.

Who am i? apart of myslef knew while other dont

Sometimes i dunno who am i or what i am
Sometimes i do know
Sometimes i dunno where i go or how i do
Sometimes i do know

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gosh, talking crap
out of blues
whats my motive?

A new series - Happy New Year

Well frankly, its a new year

Most of us will say "Today is a new day!" or "May my wish on this year will come true!" and "This year is my year!" even "I wish on this year i will be together forever with the one i love" and etc etc...

Every new year ppl will often thought that is a beginning of a new life, new chapter, new self, new reborn and new everything.

Sorry to be criticize, but new year is not a complete new book. Its a new series of the book, continued from what u did or done in ur previous book.

It never end and never begining.
the plot is climbing on the climax, the world is more vast and theres a lots of things u will face start from today-or even on the day u born


on the new year eve, i didnt went out with my bros for the fire works, except with my 10mints-to-13-years-old bro. All this while i lived, nothing had changed much except became worse. Well thats not the point i disagree to join them for fireworks.

The best seat is in the house. and its true

by the moment the sound echoed in the sky, i climbed on top of the roof (as usual).My house is perfectly on top of the hill and the view was awsome. everything is same except the fireworks was launched in every direction-east,west,north and south in this year. And i made my own 2010 wish like others, why not?

i can sense that this year will be a whole lot historical than other years. As i said, my previous year is effecting my year. Last year, my world began to expand. new activities and meeting new friends occured. Altough some bad memories happend, my life gonna be really interesting

sometimes i wonder, should i provoke it?


Im here now thinking, alone in my fav MSU cyber lab writing, designing n playing on the same time LIVE