Monday, June 14, 2010

Im Finally 19

I was born in 15th june, saturday
aka
2nd Zul Hijjah 1411

Friday, June 4, 2010

Sadness

When someone was sad - they became mo0dy all over. Telling others that they were sad and hoping for some pity. Worse, they hurt themselves. And blame for nothing about their pain in their heart. Keep thinking how unlucky they were on their life. But this is life man - We are humans and there is no way we gonna escape from sadness. Problem came, yes but its our job to make it solved. Who else if not us alone? Humans do have feelings - they encounter happiness, anger, confused, sad and many more. To make the world go around - obstacle came to concur the feelings more. Thus, obstacle came from the human itself. Humans are very various.

When someone was sad - they wanted their surrounding to be informed that they are sad. But couldnt they think about their surroundings? The world is vast and you are not the only one who is facing the sadness. You might thought that the people was sitting right in front of you was happy because that person was smiling, laughing and joking around. But the fact, in his heart - he was crying.

Im not sure if the person was smiling when he was sad - he was just showing that he was strong or maybe he didnt want to share his feelings to others. Maybe he didnt has a trustable person? Or he scared if others will left him because he was sad? Or he just wanna being alone? or being lonely.

Opposite to the one whom tell others upon his sadness - im not sure if he just want an attentions from his surroundings or how hard he encounter his sadness. Some people may think that thet person is a weak person. But on my opinion - I dunno.

Humans are very various - depends on that person himself and the situation. The worse part is, friends come to you when you are happy and leave you behind when you are sad. Maybe thats the reason of why the sad person didnt want to say out loud about his sadness. Moreover, will things changes?? I doubt that.

Me, myself was feeling sad right now. This month is my birth month and i saw bad signs around these days. Since i was 16, my birthdays seems to be worse and worse. And im thinking about the worst it can be on 15th. Maybe I should skip 1 whole day classes during that time. Its my day and i dont give a damn to care about anything. I wanna go out and do anything i like. Thus, during that day its the 2nd day of my semester - so i might not gonna lose anything since i absent on the 1st day.

Parents - they never understand a person like me because sometimes i do not understand myself either. Who am i? The question has not answered yet until now...